i went to work today not intending to have the night I did. But I am actually quite grateful it ended the way it did.
Went to work.. nothing special.. then started talking about a coworkers choice of schools and the dilemma she was having as a single mom with transportation problems and the lack of decent schools in the area. Long story short I stayed after work an hour and a half talking to her and then offered her a ride home seeing as she lives so close and rode her bike.
I took her home where she invited me in to see her house. Which may I say is super darling and she got an amazing deal on rent! like insane amazing you cant even get a studio apartment for what shes paying. But moving on. We somehow started talking about Kids and parenting and adopting and power trips and respect, pot, and all sorts of things it was just one run on conversation after another. We ended on talking about God.
Now here is where I will give you a background on me..
I grew up in the christian church and went to the christian camps and such. I Even went to a bible college for a small amount of time at which point I realized I hate “Christians” or at the least the ones that typically say they are. I realized almost all the “Christians” I ran in to were extreme hypocrites and liars. I wanted nothing to do with a religion that allows liars and judgmental people to be the teachers of something that is supposed to be so holy and pure. I cant say I hate all Christians.. but I refuse to call myself one as most tend to be tied to the words.. crazy, insane, judgmental, hypocritical, and so many more. I’m not about any of that. I’m about believing in God and being a good person with good intentions. That’s it. I also am a strong believer in not judging,. But honestly when it comes to church in this day and age. I think its a joke. Ive been maybe 5 times since I left college, and that’s been 3 going on 4 years. With that being said Ill finish telling you about my night.
So my coworker who is in her early 40’s and has two children under the age of 12. She is Mormon. and before you all start thinking crazy things let me assure you I kinda was shocked when she said that.. mainly cause I always thought of Mormons and the whole “sect” thing with the polygamy and shit.. but I again am not educated in that specific belief system so I wasn’t about to write her off.. Clearly though the whole 30 wives thing isn’t accepted by the Mormon church anymore. But I asked her some questions to which we talked and she told me about her past with her kids and before her kids and what not..
Ive never felt more comforted by a persons testimony then I was by hers.I mean she wasnt even technically “witnessing” she was just talking to me. I was so enthralled by her telling me of her life and how she lived and how she currently lives and why she believes what she believes I almost broke down crying.
For someone to witness like that. Without even knowing what they are saying is literally piercing my heart, it’s so insane! She has such a gift! And if you knew me you’d know that lately Ive been having life issues with trying to figure out who I am kinda, whats right for me and whats not. (or at least in laymens terms that’s whats been going on) But Ive asked people to help and they have all turned me down and said things they thought might have been wise at the time like, that’s not something I can answer for you..Or everyone’s different..
All I know is that I truly believe that God put her (my coworker) in my life so she could share with me her story.. And for that I am truly thankful…
And for those who read this whole thing.. thanks for being a true follower of my blog. I know these things are long winded and don’t always make sense but sometimes a person has to let out what they’re thinking. Seeing as this is a blog and all.